Dust In Dusk

Beauty.
Bones.
Hearts.
Homes.


Named as she roams. 
Free falling alone.
She suffers in thirst.
Gripping the relief of her torture tightly.


She's afraid of the night.
She vows to do what's right.


She's dying to stay.
Dying as she waits.
Even in sundown,
She fights for the day.


And she hopes, like dust, she isn't wisped away. 

Nice Words

This week has been hectic, crazy, busy, and lazy. As I reflect on my life and my time as a college student, I get a little emotional because of all that I have had to overcome. I've struggled financially, emotionally, academically, spiritually, and in more ways than I can possibly name. Every single mountain I've had to climb has always led me a beautiful peak where I can witness the loveliness of life. 

I am determined to live.

There is no way I will let the faults of this world deter me from living. 

I have learned so much about myself. I have achieved things I never thought I could. And I have failed myself when I least expected it. Regardless, I've kept fighting. 


I only wish I could share my courage with those who lost theirs.


As I grow older, I have learned how fragile life really is. All around me people are dropping dead within the blink of an eye. In a tick of a second-hand, a life passes by us and on the next world. And we sit here, us oblivious beings, completely unaware. 


I am determined to live.

So I stand here not waiting for life. I am now realizing, life is only waiting for me. And at this point, there's no reason to test its patience. I will plunge into its wonders and embrace all that it has to offer.

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Excuses only provoke failure.
I am refusing to give in to life's relentless pressures.

"Keep it moving while fighting the fire.
Keep on breathing while feeling desire."
A girl yells from her place in the world.

Sometimes, I can feel the earth spinning below my feet.
I hear the cries of strangers and enemies.
I can see the blind man's eyes as his ears watch me.

Beneath my feet, the world is spinning.

God said to fear him and none else.
But I fear my life, my heart, and myself.

I fear my decision to take what I've been given and to turn it to gold, will be the death of a girl crushed by her failure.

Her heart bleeds.
Into the earth it seeps.
The spinning her blood feeds.

Greed and belief.
Pay heed and obey.
Live while your blood runs abundant.


Love while your heart allows it.
Breathe while the sky is intact.
Lay down.
And feel the earth break you.

-R.