The List

" A man is just a man full of faults and weakness. Like a young Jerusalem, all alone and speechless." -Matisfyu

Where do I begin? I vowed to my self, to never, ever let a man stand before me and dictate my future. My emotions or my betterment. And although a few have attempted, they've all failed. To my delight.

See, I've observed plenty. And what I've found is that every single man has realized this: they do not compare. They are not fit to be MY Mr. Right-now. Because it's my intellect, my determination, my lack of ignorance, my sarcastic humor, my unwillingness to to be fooled, and plenty more that has made them realize that I am too great of a person to be "real" with. Because being real means being attached. And who wants to be attached to someone who cares for you? That's how feelings get hurt. But when TIME is SPENT....as in you can't get that back...it's a catch-22.

The favors. Oh, I do NOT believe in serving the unappreciative. But for a select few, I will sacrifice my time and my pride. But to be lied to. To be deceived...even after long efforts of investigation of a person's demeanor has taken place, is sinful and shameful.

THIS I loathe. THIS I will never tolerate. THIS will have you on my list until I completely erase you from my memory. You're a thief when you're a liar. And what seems to baffle me through all of this, is that I disclose this fact. I let people know at the very beginning that lying to me is the worst thing. But to a liar, this doesn't matter. Only selfishness is in mind.

So, what is the conclusion? How do I live with people who only attempt to build themselves up by breaking others down? I laugh in pity. I can only shake my head and pray that they will some day realize their faults. And although I will remain stronger than I was before my encounters, I do only regret wasting so much time. Time is something that you can't get back.
It is so precious. And it's sad that days that one once adored can be tainted with regret and hate.

For you:
"Don't ever expect regret to take "it" back, for guilt is everlasting. Justice was never promised to you at birth."

-R.